You know how certain people tell you that their births came with a lot of mysteries, well, mine also did. It so happened that few days after my birth, I suddenly became blind and couldn’t see. My mum being the very observing woman that she is actually thought I loved closing my eyes as a little baby and didn’t think much of it but then she noticed that I wasn’t opening my eyes for such a long time and decided to tell my dad who is an health officer. As knowledgeable as my dad was health-wise, he still couldn’t explain what happened to his first daughter. So, I was taken to the hospital, checked on by a doctor who I believe is a very cute doctor, obviously because I can see today (hahaahahaha!).
After a few days in the hospital, I got my sight back and today, I keep appreciating God for the ‘gift of sight’.
Whenever my dad tells me this story, I keep asking myself; what if I grew up as a blind girl? What if I couldn’t see for the rest of my life? So many ‘what ifs’ have played through my head and I keep imagining how Cobhams Asuquo and I would have probably become the best musical duo in the music industry of today. It is individuals like Cobhams that make me believe that even in disability, you can excel and break boundaries if you step out and let that God-given features in you speak and work for you.
I really do not want to bore you on my birthday, so I am just going to cut to the chase.
So, I have been thinking about a lot of things recently and it has got me wondering about what I eventually want to achieve in life, the set of people I want to impart, people I would love to work with, the imaginary, creative empire I want to make a reality, places I will love to be, individuals I am suppose to model after, etcetera. I usually call this visualizing my future with my creative mind space…
But then, let’s not forget the pressures of life that comes with visualizing especially doubts and fear.
But your strength lies in the remembrance that these fears are not meant to tear you down or keep you down but make you believe you can rise high above anything even the devil. So when you find yourself being pressured, being pulled down, being derailed, being suffocated by the negative features, you should count it a blessing cause it is only another opportunity for you to be stronger than before and face your fears.
Now, this brings me to my point of wanting to be an influence and make an impact wherever I am. But how can I? When I am struggling with fears, challenges and weaknesses that I know deep down can be fought and won. So, if you are thinking of being an impart to someone else, please fight your fears so that you can teach someone else how to fight theirs.
I remembered sometime ago, when I started working on my novel, I decided to write a short piece and make a presentation on it. Now this was something I had not done before apart from presentations I had done in the University while a member of the Creative Writers Club. So I felt I was ready to show everyone my little piece but when it got closer to the presentation day, I shivered and freaked out a lot of times till I realized I was being a cold local chicken who was being pulled down by what I still don’t know but I am grateful for the fact that I presented that piece with confidence that freaked even myself out but I got to realize that day that I could make so much difference if I let myself believe I can.
So, believe in your worth before anybody else can, fight those demons and make them flee from that beautiful confidence you have let loose and very importantly, BE AN IMPACT to others